Burrying Autumn
     At the moment that the toll of midnight rang, you left… You left quietly forever in

this sleepless night, with my heart…
     Winter---terminator of Autumn, I really can’t love you for some things in the world

can't be given to that once it is given to this, which just like a heart that chasing for

favorite love!
     The overdue love and the helpless tears. I think no one can be more fond of you.

However, you still left me… Qiuer(a female’s name, means Autumn ), I won’t blame you for

I know you are afraid of coldness. I have ever said I would wait for you for all my life!
     I have loved “Spring” and “Summer” in the world. That is because “Spring” gave me

life and “Summer” pullulation. And you? I don’t want you to sacrifice anything. I wonder

why I fall in love with you and love you so deeply. Maybe that is a nature love, willing

love!
     I wonder if there is an abject called “love” in the land of living. Why this abject

that no one can explain clearly since thousands of years wants to torture us two? We are

both inerrable.
     Qiuer, I love you, just as you love him. We are both pursuing sufferingly for our own…
     I don’t hate the late acquaintance. Qiuer, I’ d like to say thank you for, at least,

you have proved that the abject I pursued obstinately is existed in the world…
     I have changed my look for the sake of you; I have been addicted with madness for the

sake of you. You have said that you couldn’t give me what I needed. Because you said you

had been belong to somebody else… However, I can’t forget you.
     The God is unfair to me. It just gives us a “late Summer or early Winter”. I keep

watching you for a season. I don’t dare to keep a slack hand. I hope I can keep watching

you in that unmaned corner for every minute and every second of my life…watching your smile

…watching your tears…sharing your gloom…It is enough for me to live with your expectation

and watching…
     You said that you were fear of coldness. However, I can’t satisfy you with the warmth

you need. Winter comes eventually. You really wants to leave. I am just one of the leaves.

After all, a leave can’t redeem the whole Autumn…
     I start to hate myself. I hate that my thin body can’t block the cold Winter for you…
     Qiuer, you have gone in the end…gone forever with my missing and my saddness. Leaving

me, a lonely dead leave, hanging on the branch and facing the cold Winter alone…
     I can’t find your silhouette any more between so many people in the complicated world.

Who will care about a dead leave in the cold wind among the beautiful nature scenery? Even

more, who will comprehend why the dead leave want to hang on the branch instead of leaving?

Is it waiting for Autumn? But Autumn will never come back again…
     Bise appears, and the snow has wrapped the leave. It has to leave eventually. It has to

go to another world, though it is reluctant to leave… It is making a circle when falling

into the earth. At last, it becomes a piece of sad tears. What reflects from its glitting tears is the shadow of Autumn…

(Translation/Meng Xiaoli )

Source : Women’s Home Club Nvxing.com